Should I have taken it up at first?

Was it a wise choice for me to volunteer myself to be the ticketing officer for Montage?
I never foresee myself to end up so unhappy doing it.
I getting tired of this.
Very tried.
No one has been able to understand my feelings.
No one has been able to understand my thoughts.
Why can't most of the things flow as I wanted them to be?

I feel that I'm a shit worker doing ticketing,
Selling tickets to don't know what kind of event.
I don't feel like a ticketing officer.
I don't feel part of Montage.

I'm not a wonder woman.
I don't have magical powers.
I cannot create miracles.
Things don't come out with a snap of my fingers.

You say that I'm given the space to have my plans running.
Since when was I given the chance to sit down and discuss about my plans?
You tell me that the committee wants to do this this this for ticketing,
I said NO.
You never asked for my opinion,
And threw at me the whole lot why it's better to follow what the committee wants.
What kind of ticketing officer does the committee treat me as?

I was not asked to attend meetings.
I'm fine with that.
But the least could be done was to update me on any progress I needed to take note of.
Not the other way round.
I don't know what was discussed during meetings,
I don't know how far the progress has gone.
I'm very sure that ticketing was never on the agenda list.
Because no one borders to ask me to update them.

I took the initiative to post the progress occassionally.
No one showed concerned about it.
And people can still come and ask me about the progress after that.
What does my post mean to the committee.
I'm not posting for fun.
Nor to boast how much work I've done.

I had to verbally asked how many helpers they got for Montage.
They told me 3.
Wow...
What can you do with 3 helpers?
There are more models than helpers.
Luckily I asked.

I told one of the committee members that I intend to resign from my post of a Ticketing Officer.
And I thought it could just be a one-one sharing of how I felt.
Eventually I managed to tell myself to carry on for Montage and not for the committee.

What exactly is my role in Montage?
I don't know.
The view is so hazy...

I've been invited to...

Just checked my NUS email.
Noticed that I received an email regarding the Main Commencement Ceremony.
And on further reading of the email it says:

3. Congratulations! You have been selected by your Faculty (subject to the conferment of your degree by 30 June 2008) to be part of the privileged portion of the 2008 graduating cohort to be presented at C1 in lieu of the ceremony scheduled for your home faculty. C1 is scheduled for 7 July 2008 (Monday) at 11.00 am.

Wow!
I did not expect myself to be selected for the main ceremony.
I had read briefly before about this main ceremony where only selected graduates get to attend.
Little did I expect myself to receive the invitation too.

Now, I have to think about it.
Either
1. receive the scroll during the main ceremony from the Chancellor of NUS and sit in as an audience for my Maths dept session (faculty ceremony)
or
2. decline the invitation to main ceremony and receive scroll together with my coursemates from the Science Dean (or someone from the Science Faculty).

Which one should I go to???
Anyone can tell me?

First studio shoot

Did my first studio shoot with the East Shooters today.
Many first times.
My first outing with them,
My first studio shoot.
Model's first time too.

The model

The group shot

More of the studio shots can be found here.

Cheers,
Peiyan

New Shipment has arrived

My new orders have arrived today.
This time, the orders are mainly reading books (not textbooks).
After finish reading the book "The Man who Knew Infinity", I was craving for more books on Number Theorists.
Hence, I went to search for new books to read.
But after a few dissapointing tries on the national libraries, I decided to give up and buy the books from amazon.
I wonder who the delivery man was cos the package always land on my table when I reach home (that's bcos I'm usually home late :P)

A much smaller package this time since it contains only reading books

Book 1: The Man Who Loved Only Numbers by Paul Hoffman

Book 2: The Code Book by Simon Singh

Book 3: My Brain is Open by Bruce Schechter

There are 2 more books making their way to my house.
Should be able to get them tomorrow or on Tuesday.
2 packages, shipped on the same day, arriving on different days.

More readings to feed myself with,
Peiyan

The Man Who Knew Infinity

While in the course of learning Number Theory in MA4263, I gradually grew interest in this area of Mathematics. Through the course, Prof Chan told us many stories of famous mathematicians he has met before and stories of great mathematicians in Number Theory. There's G.H. Hardy, dela Valle Poisson, Hadarmard, Selberg, Paul Erdos, Adolf J. Hildebrand and others whom I can't recall their names. But of all, S. Ramanujan had very interesting stories about his life in becoming the greatest mathematician India has ever produced.

Overview:
Ramanujan was born in India with no proper education degree as he never manage to pass any school exams. His main interest was in mathematics, neglecting all other subjects. His only activity is sitting somewhere comfortable with his slate and pencil and noisy writings on his slate as he drift away in this mathematical thoughts. From young, Ramanujan came up with many mathematical 'results' on his own (some of which were already been found ages ago in the western part of the world while some became very interesting results as found by other mathematicians later). With no proper training in mathematics, Ramanujan did not know where he was right or wrong in his mathematical arguments. Neither did he know that some of the results which he found out by himself were already made know in the western countries.

Ramanujan tried very hard to approach many significant people in his hometown to help get his mathematics works recognised but no one could help him. It was until a letter from Ramanujan to a mathematician in Cambridge, G.H. Hardy, in which Ramanujan sort to seek help from freed up Ramanujan's mind to wonder freely into mathematics. Hardy felt that Ramanujan was a gem which has not been excavated.


Ramanujan gradually grew recognition when he went over to Cambridge to work on his notebook (which contains all the results he found) with Hardy. The results of this genius was widely spread amgonst the mathematicians in Cambridge and back in India. But Ramanujan's health took the plunge in Cambridge as the WWI came due to his strict vegetarian diet and long work whole day long with no one to take care of him.


Ramanujan died at the age of 33 due to tubercolosis.

The elmo thing you see there is acutally my bookmark.

It's so sad that such a genius man in mathematics died young.
One famous result from him is the Hardy-Ramanujan number: 1729
While sick in the hospital bed, Ramanujan could still explain the number which Hardy told him about the taxi having such a boring number plate.
It is the smallest number which can be expressed as a sum of 2 cube in two different ways.

Go borrow the book if you are interested.
I'm almost finishing mine.

Elmo zooms in to keep your spot,
Peiyan